Sanctuary - The First Glimpse Inside!

Sanctuary, a 30 day guide with meditations, affirmations and guidance to help you navigate your twin flame experience, will be available for Kindle this Friday!

Writing this book has challenged me more than almost anything in my life. Having to go back through my relationship with my Twin Flame is like claws tearing through my soul. I've broken down in tears more in the last weeks than I have in months. It's also made me face and accept many things about my twin journey. It's also made me realize that I can't ever forget Tony or walk away from him, though in truth, there are times I wish I could.

Having to go back through everything reminds me all over again what we share, what we are... He may have chosen to forget all that, but there's no walking away from it for me. Tony is always going to be a part of me and I can't pretend otherwise.

I'm honestly terrified to share this much of myself with the world at large. There are some things I've written in this book that are so painful, but I know there is no other choice I can make. If I'm not honest, if I don't bare my soul, then my words will fall flat and not do their job.

It's funny because last summer I started having visions of having to stand naked in the center of town. The vision got more explicit each time I'd have it and my twin was there, he had my hand at one point. He was lovingly supporting me and I knew at the time it had to do with my writing, of course he and I were still intimately connected then and I just assumed the naked part meant I needed to be more vulnerable in my fiction... silly me.

This book, this is really me standing naked in the center of town, letting everyone see all of me.. well all of my twin flamenesses anyway. ;-) It's seriously the most vulnerable thing I've ever done, but I'm ridiculously proud of it. I'm ridiculously proud of me, for sticking with it, for not copping out, for not selling short, and for not holding back! I just pray to the depth of my soul this book brings peace, healing, enlightenment and comfort to anyone going through the twin flame awakening because then it will all be worth it.

The next few days will be the hardest, I'm finishing the book with mostly mine and Tony's story, It's the parts I couldn't write before, but I think I'm ready now. So I may not blog much this coming week, but don't forget me! I'll have my head down typing 'til my fingers bleed finishing this... then all of life as I know it will be different somehow... I can just feel it.

Anyway, below is the first real glimpse anyone is going to get from the book. I'm sharing from the introduction, then there are two full days below that so you can get the idea. I hope if you choose to purchase this book, it blesses you deeply. I thank every single one of you who's supported me, sent mail, or simply given me a virtual hug on Facebook. This book is for all of us who've been there and all still to come. You have my heart and soul. ~ Samatha

Introduction

Twin Flames… the journey to, with, and apart from my twin has been the most life transforming experience.

It came in without warning. I had never heard the term “twin flame” before it started coming up in my meditations over a man I had met and fallen inexplicably in love with. A man I was losing to another woman.

I was seeking spiritual guidance, I had no idea what to do about the man in question because all common sense said to walk away, but no matter how I tried, no matter how I wanted to, I couldn’t.

Three separate times it came up. The first time I was told by one of my guides that he was my mirror reflection and I already knew everything I needed to about him, all I had to do was look inside myself.

The second time a different guide impressed on me the term twin soul and the third time I was told Twin flame, it’s time you go look it up.

When I did, I was stunned because, as I’m sure you found as you first started researching this, everything fit too perfectly. Everything I read kept turning on more and more light bulbs, but nothing I read told me how I was supposed to handle that the other half of my soul was rapidly falling in love with another woman.

It’s been a very long road for me since then and though I’ve blogged extensively about my journey, this is the first book I’ve written to share the enlightenment and the lessons I learned along the way.

Done in a daily format, for 30 days, each day gives you a mantra, either an affirmation, an inspiration, or a meditation, a crystal or stone, and a passage written from my own journey, sharing the good moments and the bad, along with the lessons learned.

I am writing this book from where I am today on this journey. The scary part of course is that this could all turn and change on me tomorrow, but for today, I write in honesty from what I know to be my truth and I share vulnerably without shame.

I share all of this with you in the hopes it may give you clarity, strength and hope. Most of all, I’m hoping it gives a sense that you are not alone in this, you are not crazy, this is really happening and you will survive it.

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Day Four

(Divine Love)

Mantra ~

Eternal love from the beginning of creation flows through me. I am one with love. I am love.

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Affirmation ~

I am of the divine.

I will return to the divine.

While here in this lifetime, I will be a conduit for unconditional divine love.

The only way to give love is to be love. We must start this journey with ourselves first as we spoke of yesterday, because until we see ourselves worthy of love, we can never have it. Once you can truly love yourself, accept and embrace what an amazing, beautiful creation you are, then you can allow love to flow freely from the purest place in your soul, love that will be returned to you tenfold by those surrounding you, in both the physical and the spiritual.

Today we focus on divine love, the purest, highest vibrational love. A love that is your birth right. I’m inviting you in today to swim in this ocean of love, to discover a love deeper than most know. This energy is powerful and life changing and people who truly experience it, have been known to glow from the inside so that the people around them see it.

That’s power.

And it’s yours for the taking.

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Stone for the day ~

Morganite: This is a Crystal of Divine Love. It activates, clears and energizes the heart chakra, connects us to Divine Unconditional Love and helps love to flow in your life in all forms. What is so lovely about this stone is that it brings forth loving thoughts and actions, keeping you centered in love.

Wearing it in gem form, evokes a sense of peace, joy and inner strength; worn for extended periods of time, it encourages a growth of confidence and power that is sorely needed when going through all the ups and downs of the twin flame. That power comes from a constant awareness of the connection to Divine love. If you can find this stone in a pendant or a ring, I would highly recommend you obtaining that. I know if I ever get married again, I want my wedding ring made from this stone. I truly believe, twin flame or not, that the strongest unions are those that embody the divine within their union and this stone is a beautiful symbol of that.

Also, anyone who felt overwhelmed by the huge heart chakra opening brought on by rose quartz will resonate better with Morganite's slow, gentle energy as it opens the heart chakra. It’s said it tends to self-balance itself with the user’s energy to open the chakra at the perfect rate for you.

Love and Light ~

I remember reading once many years ago that we are like water pitchers pouring out love on so many, from our spouses and children, to our communities, our twin flames. The trouble is when we are not connected to ‘source’ we have to take time to refill that pitcher and as life dictates our schedules so much, honestly, we rarely take the time to refill that pitcher. Still, we expect it will pour an endless supply of love out never leaving us in need.

That’s what we want, that’s how we see it in our head, but there is a missing piece, you have to be connected to a greater water supply if you want it to flow endlessly without your conscious effort to refill. Obviously I’m talking about the divine love of ‘spirit’ or ‘god’ or whatever term you are comfortable with. When we are talking about a pure cycle of love between ourselves and the divine, love that originates with the creator and we allow it to be poured into our own souls, we live in a perfect balance of never ending flow. We have all the love, focus, joy and peace necessary at all times.

Oftentimes the twin flame journey is your calling to, or back to, spirit. There absolutely is something out there greater than we are. It can be an energy, it can be a deity, it can be a combination of things, it’s most likely something no one has figured out yet, I always get a sense that god likes the guessing game of “who are you?”

All that aside, god is calling you. You cannot walk this journey without some spiritual base. I’m not saying you have to give away all your worldly goods and “follow Jesus”. I’m not saying you have to dive head first into all the new age philosophies out there on twin flames. I’m not saying you must walk the path of Buddha, or Muhammad or you can do all these things. What matters is that you must find your own personal divine connection. It doesn’t have to make sense to anyone else, but your soul knows.

Follow that.

 You will need it as you go through this. Some events that occur within the twin flame are enough to drive some to the point of suicide, others simply to despair. You cannot let this destroy you. You are too precious and you are greatly needed here.

For me, there were moments so dark that the only reason to keep going was that I had faith in god and I had faith in the journey. I had faith there was purpose to this all and however it worked out in the end, I believed I would be rewarded for my pain and my sacrifice and that I would be happy.

Faith is your doorway to divine love.

Divine love is your doorway to your twin.

I saw this start to crystalize within my own twin flame journey. There were times I was so deep in despair I would be on my knees begging the god of my knowing to release me form this. Then I would have moments where I knew I was flying above it all, where the girlfriend, the broken promises, the heartache, none of it mattered, because I was channeling something greater than myself. In those moments, I could honestly be there for my twin emotionally, without demanding anything in return from him and I know those were the moments when he felt closest to me, safest with me.

Love comes in many shades, but having experienced the love that comes with the twin flame, those moments where you just feel entirely lit up inside and you’re vibrating with pure love energy, I know why so many are driven so far to get it back once you’ve felt it, but too many forget the divine love component.

It is not a connection merely between you and the other half of your soul, but it is a dance between the three of you - you, your twin, and god – and yes, it’s the most exquisite bliss you will ever know. However, too often we think that is simply our twin and we need them to feel that, but I would put to you that, the base of that feeling is your own energy mixed with the divine love you are channeling. That is a potent combination and, keeping in mind I know what you want your end game to be, for just this second, drop your twin and jump into a pool that is so deep and so refreshing you will be changed for it. You won’t ever want to leave it, you’ll simply want your twin to join you in it and I think ultimately, that’s the point.

Walking this path is a delicate balance, it is a call to spiritual, it is a call to our deepest souls, it is a call to love, first to ourselves, then to the divine and ultimately to the unconditional love of another. This path will lead you to many shades of love, but the point is not that you have to choose between them, the truth is, you can have them all. You are Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz, you’ve had the power all along… it’s time to waken it and start using it.

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Day Twenty Two

(Joy and Pain)

Mantra ~

Today I will remember to play.

I will remember to laugh.

I will remember to breathe in joy.

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Affirmation ~

Joy rises in my soul and sets in my heart.

I am happy.

I am blessed.

I have found love and it is fulfilled within me.

Today is a day of joy. Stop worrying, take off the cloak that weighs you down and be every wonderful thing you are.

Reclaim your peace.

Reclaim you happiness.

Reclaim everything you are, because I’m telling you, what you are, is stunning!

Stone for the day ~

Spessartine Garnet: I’ll be honest with you, this is a pricier stone than most I’ve suggested. I think it’s wonderful though that among our collection, when we can, we bring in some rare gems that we may otherwise never run across. This one is very special in my opinion. Known as the Garnet of the Sun, Spessartine is one of the lesser-known and rarer varieties of Garnet. It’s connected to the base, sacral and solar plexus chakras and helps to overcome fears concerning new experiences or fear of failure. It brings a creative energy allowing you to freely express your ideas and bring them into manifestation. It can also encourage you to take action toward your dreams, visions and goals. Wonderful!

Its energy allows you to be optimistic and confident in your actions and to make the changes needed to move forward on your path which is exactly what we’re wanting. It’s a stone of attraction and helps to bring your ideas into reality. It would be another great stone to use with your law of attraction work. It vibrates at a high rate, which means that it may bring to us the things that we desire much more quickly. Just be careful, you don’t want to manifest things you truly aren’t ready for yet.

One of the things I haven’t discussed here really is Kundalini energy, primarily because I feel that to be a more advanced state of being, but if you are familiar and aware of this energy, this stone can stimulate it and help you balance it out.

Love and Light ~

We’re getting to the end here and today I really want you to take in how far you’ve come. Not from reading this book, but in your journey. Because if you’re reading this book, you’ve been through something and it’s changed you. Who you are today, is not the same person you were before you met your twin. That moment changes us all permanently.

It changes our beloved runners as well. Just remember that if you are in a situation where your twin has run, they are simply dealing with the intensity, the fear, the knowing in the only way they are able. We are two halves of a whole and though we may mirror one another perfectly, we are still two halves which means you will do some things differently and so will they. How you handle the intensity and the knowing very oftentimes becomes one of those things. We stare at the dust trail left and think I would never have done that to you… that’s because the half you have doesn’t understand the need to run, your twin got that part, they probably don’t understand how you could not want to run.

For today though, I want you to remember your joy.

I want you to be good to yourself.

I want you to remember the love and the excitement you felt at the beginning and just for today, bask in it.

Any turmoil or struggles will still be there tomorrow but too often on this journey the pain grabs you by the throat and you are fighting for breath to the point you forget the sun is still rising, birds are still singing, children are still laughing.

One thing I will promise you…

It will be okay.

I understand it may not seem like it now, and there may look like there is no way you’ll ever feel okay again, but I promise you, you will be.

Here’s what I’ve learned with absolute certainty.

1.      There is no forcing this

2.      You must come to surrender

3.      Whatever twists and turns this takes, there is purpose and beauty in it and you are strong enough to handle it!

When my twin was falling in love with the other woman, I felt my soul was being ripped in two. I thought no pain could be worse than that. I could barely function.

When he rejected me, I acted in a way I was appalled by. To say I cried would be like saying the great flood was a spring shower. I begged him to love me again. I couldn’t stop harping at him about how much I loved him. I was panicked… it was ugly.

When he walked away completely… I felt like I failed my entire life’s purpose.

I felt like here it was, the reason I was created and I failed it. He went with someone else. He took my heart, my soul, my every dream and left me.

How do you go on from that?

I suppose that’s the tipping point. At least it was for me. It was in that moment I had to decide, was I going to crumple up and die, or was I going to make all that pain worth something?

I know this journey is confusing. I know it hurts. But I know you and you can make it through this. So much of my love is sent to you every single day. I pray for you. I believe in you. You will not only find your way through this, but when you come out the other side, you will be more than you ever knew possible. And for that I am profoundly grateful for Tony, because that’s exactly what happened to me.